Banff National Park, Alberta Canada, August 2009
I am Monad, a beautiful lady who lives in the forest. The forest is wide and vast. There is plenty of natural food in this forest. Down in the valley, is a wonderful river with plenty of glacier-melt water that runs all year and tastes wonderful to drink!
I, Monad, am a young maiden and live by myself in the forest with the animals, trees, plants, birds and flowers. I have my messengers from God; they are in nature, silently. Jesus gives me messages as a deer/elk, Mother Mary comes to me as bird messengers, especially the robin; and, St. Germain comes as a wise crow.
This one day as I am walking through the forest, I became hungry. I stopped and sat down and asked Mother Earth to help me find something that would be good for me to eat. After resting a little while, I then went deeper into the forest and pretty soon I saw the most amazing, huge, Elk that I had ever seen. It stopped and looked at me and didn’t even run off. Instead, it went about its business grazing on grasses and such. Pretty soon, I felt guided to follow the Elk as it wandered down a trail. I noticed that the Elk was not only eating grasses, but some of the mushrooms that had sprung up overnight after the last rainstorm. As I walked along I began to wonder what mushrooms might be good for me to eat or not.
Remembering guidance from Archangel Michael, he told me that when something feels good, I would get a great ‘love’ feeling in my heart that would feel good also; and that when something didn’t feel good (or wasn’t good for me), I would get a heaviness in the pit of my stomach and maybe feel bad or hear the words ‘no’. But he cautioned me, to not always trust the words….to trust my feelings instead. I also noticed that God speaks through me silently as well. God seems to use my eyes to notice specific things. I found myself seeing certain mushrooms along the path and then I would ask my inside self if that one was good for me or not. The first few I felt I heard the words no or the feeling of hunger went away from the inside. I was also noticing quite a trail of partially-eaten mushrooms left by the Elk. Thank you Jesus! I felt he was leaving me a trail of mushroom crumbs to let me know I was on the right path! Pretty soon, I felt my eyes focus on this pretty pink/red mushroom. It looked great. I felt happy! I asked the mushroom if it would be ok if I picked it and I still felt happy, so I did. My heart was very joyous and I then decided to sit down, right then and there and eat the mushroom. I gave great gratitude to God and Mother Earth for this gift! Wow! What a meal…not just a few leaves or nuts, but a big mushroom! I noticed as I sat and gave a great big, heart-open, gratitude to God, I looked up to the sky and the clouds parted and the sun shone through and this amazing love passed all around me and through me…. Ah, the love of Creator! She/he loves us all so much….
I found it interesting that the mushroom had a hot spicy taste to it. It wasn’t plain at all…very tasty and filling too! After I finished, I decided to walk some more, but now I was thirsty. I have noticed that mostly I am not thirsty, unless I eat something. As I went further on my walk, I again looked around for maybe some more mushrooms; but, then I remembered that it is best for me not to store-up food. From my experience, eating in the moment is best. It is fresh and it is what is best for me in that moment. Many times in the past, I had stored food, but really, the next day or later, it is usually something else I really want to eat and not what I had collected. I also realized that I took the gift of the plant’s life-energy when I picked it in that moment; so instead, I could have just left it there to continue to grow, stay fresh and live.
Living in the forest by myself has given me time to contemplate many of my likes and dislikes and my tendencies to base my actions on either love or fear. Ultimately, that is what I figures it all comes down to: love or fear. Sometimes love has other names like: gratitude, appreciation, beauty, kindness, joy, life, etc. and fear has other names like: anger, greed, mean, dead, hurt, pain, etc. I have decided that love feels better than fear. I love it when my heart opens and feels so big and happy. Yes! So I try to always choose love as much as possible and notice when I am perhaps making my choices based on fear instead. Mostly, I realize that storing a lot of food, was really based on fear and not love. It really gets down to the moment also. I have realized that acting outside of what is needed for the moment is living in the past (habits/pattern) or future (fear of lack)…and not in my power of creativity in the moment. I noticed that when I am in the flow of the moment, I am very creative and well taken care of.
I really like being alone a lot, because I realize, I am not really alone! On the inside I have my ‘knowing’ of a connection to another world of invisible friends that are visible to me there. My invisible friends do help me here. Sometimes, they are really pretty visible here…really! Sometimes, I look at the bark of a tree and see people-like beings. One time, I saw a leprechaun and even talked to him for a while! Mother Earth or Mother Mary, I’m not sure which, talks to me all the time through the honey bees. She gives me ideas when they come near me as I sit quietly. So who is to say what is visible or invisible anyway?
I have also noticed something else that I would like to share: that when you sleep directly on Mother Earth, you get the most wonderful insights, dreams and healings. Yes, it is true, it happens to me all the time. I find that I have inside information about the area where I am, the people and animals that come near me, I also remember my dreams and where I journey during the night and the best of all, Mother Earth and the angels heal my body so I am always healthy! Nature is awesome! I notice also that I have to do my part and be silent, listen and be observant. Nature (birds, animals, plants and trees) are always silently showing me their way of being and all I have to do is sit, be quiet and observe. If any questions well up inside of me, pretty soon something or someone shows up to give me an answer.
Day 2: I woke up this morning in a new forest. I visited the horses and mules nearby. I noticed a lot of ground squirrels in this area. I very much felt my connection to my star brothers and sisters. I felt today like spending time saying my “I Am Presence” prayer. Last night as I was walking through the forest, I again noticed a lot of mushrooms, many different varieties that I was not familiar with. I talked to God/Goddess (Mother Earth) and asked Spirit to somehow show me which ones might be good to eat. Later I met a cowboy and he was very wary of eating any mushroom, though he said he knew someone once who knew how to find his meal in the forest anytime. I thought about what he said….eating in the moment and having a full-meal everyday just in the forest!
I began my prayers, this morning, calling in the Saints, sages and honoring the 7 directions. I called to bless all life. I love doing my prayers and I feel a special energy for myself in honoring the Earth, especially when I feel it is right to say them. It takes a while, about 2 hours to really ‘feel’ into them. At some point I also held my ‘mother crystal’ in my lap, to anchor the love and light of source (which is everywhere) here in this sacred place. Today was a very special day. It is the 3rd day anniversary of the Harmonic Concordance and also the anniversary of my former marriage 36 years ago….August 18th.
As I pondered, again, which mushrooms might be good to eat, and after talking to the man, I decided to collect a few and set them aside with the intention of researching them at the library. A very mental way to approach the situation. However, this morning when I was setting up to say my prayers, I noticed the ground squirrels running around and eating this or that. I asked Spirit to only show me (notice) those mushrooms that are good for me. I noticed that the squirrels did eat most of one variety of mushroom…so those must be good. Shortly, thereafter, I had a thought…that would be good, if the squirrels just nibbled on a mushroom, but didn’t eat it all of it (like the elk did); then, I would know it would be good to eat and there would be some for me.
Towards the end of my prayer session; I felt very much compelled to call in my grandmothers and grandfathers. The area where I am is called Winnewanka, after the former Native Americans (or First Nation) people that lived here called Winni-wiki. I felt like no one had been here in a long time to drum to Mother Earth or to honor our Native American ancestors and Mother Earth through drumming. The order of my prayers include this request: “Beloved Maitreya, how can I exercise faith today, beyond what I know and experience a miracle in each moment?” I say this three times. I also know Maitreya as the higher/incorporated selves of Jesus, Mary, Sananda, Buddha, ascended Native American and galactic oversoul. Then I drummed. I really feel into my drumming; calling on all the Love and Light Spirits that are present and wanting to express their love into this earthly plane. I love the sound of drumming, it fills up my heart and I love feeling the presence of Spirit within and all around me. I was sitting on my blanket from Mexico, barefoot, eyes closed in the forest really enjoying myself with the sun shinning and the wind gently blowing…. Ah, the love!
When I was done, I realized I was hungry. As I walked forward I noticed mushrooms around me…yet, the thought of mushrooms was really farthest from my mind. I noticed this time certain ones and I felt they were a very special gift from Spirit… a thank you. I collected those and walked further. I then saw the same type of mushrooms that the squirrels were eating, but this time they just took a nibble from the top and left plenty for me!!!! Awesome! Thank you God! Thank you Lord Maitreya for miracle! And most perfectly, thank you ancestors and Mother Earth for showing me. By the time I got to where I wanted to wash and eat the mushrooms, I realized I had a lot of mushrooms! Too many, really. So, then I proceeded to check out each one….but not through the mind, through the heart. I held each one to my heart and asked if this one was good to eat? I could feel a huge amount of love-energy move through my heart and could hear ‘yes’. After a while, I then asked Spirit, are all mushrooms good to eat? I felt that the answer I got was that it is a matter of vibration. What ever vibration I am radiating at, I attract into my reality….with help from Spirit for discernment, at this moment, I was ‘blessing’ the mushrooms and they were blessing me. I believed them to be divine and therefore they were, especially holding them up to my heart in deep appreciation and gratitude! Mushrooms are special, because they are sensitive beings/spirits and are easily infused with the love/fear energy of others, especially humans.
After washing the mushrooms, I decided to taste test the different ones…. Oh, now I get it! With so many, I don’t need to eat them all. They all have different tastes and textures. As I sampled them, I realized that the ones I liked best were the ones that the squirrels took a nibble out of…of course! They are experienced taste-testers! I noticed, as I started to eat these and get my fill, I moved on to other mushrooms, Spirit was guiding me further…sometimes I would go to sample a new and different one, but then my stomach felt full. To me that is ‘no’ or wait, so I sat it down. Some were easy to discern right away (to tough, bitter aftertaste, etc.) so I decided to bless them and return them back to the land. I am so happy! I keep laughing now when I saw all these mushrooms with little squirrel nibbles on them! I love God. Always getting through to me, one way or another, so I can again trust nature and how Mother Earth feeds us naturally.
I love miracles…it is a miracle to me. I didn’t have to use my mind, go to the library, spend a lot of time looking up what other people have figured out…Spirit was able to show me right here and now what was good for me and I immediately had breakfast…through love, my heart, intuitive feelings and the animals. Thank you God/Goddess, you are awesome!