Making $30,000 by Fasting

It was January 2004, and I had just recently returned from my trip to Mexico City for the Feast Day of Our Lady of Guadalupe.  Before I left, I put the house I owned in Nevada City up for sale a few months prior.  After I returned, I felt transformed in many ways.  My real estate agent name was Mary.

As I resumed somewhat to daily life again; I felt motivated to ‘spruce-up’ the house again by painting the inside of the garage and the outside back deck.  Since I was learning more and more about energy, I chose to sing, chant mantras while I painted and/or play music.  My favorite song was the ‘Ave Maria’ or other New Age music.

During the 4 months the house was on the market, prior to my trip to Mexico, only a few potential buyers had come by to see the property.  Now that I had returned, no new buyers had come by.  But, I didn’t feel worried. I merrily went about my life, moment by moment.

Then one weekend, not one couple, but two couples came by to check out the house – twice they both came back!  That was new.  But, I felt non-attached about it really.  Then on that next Saturday, my agent, Mary, called me and told me that one of the couples contacted her and had her write-up an offer.  She said that she fully expected the other couple to, perhaps show-up with an offer too, because they also indicated they were very interested; but, so far they hadn’t contacted her.  So with this offer in hand, she wanted to know if I would be available for her to come by on Sunday to present it to me.  She said, she thought I’d like the offer.  It was shy of my asking price and there were a few contingencies; but she thought we could work with it.  She asked, if 1 p.m. would be ok?  And I said, “yes.”

On Sunday, I decided to attend a Community Church gathering where my friends sing and play instruments.  It’s a bit of a drive from where I live, but I enjoy it.  I arrived about 10 a.m., as it was starting.  However, as I was walking into the Church, suddenly my Guides came in telepathically (I feel a lot of joy, when this happens).  They said, “We want to talk to you.”  So, as I started to sit down, I telepathed back to them, “Ok, it seems like a good place to communicate, it’s the House of God.”  But instead, they say, “We need to talk to you at your house.”  So since, obviously it was important, I decided to leave immediately and go back home.  I left a lot of friends with puzzled expressions on their faces for leaving so quickly, after just arriving, but what could I say?

I drove the 25 mins to get back home.  I went into the house and I felt Spirit direct me to the Dining Room to sit down and communicate.  From the years that I re-awakened and learned about energy, I did have some nice ‘energy’ set-up in my house, so it feels like a good place for me to be.  I sat on a dining room chair right next to the window, gazing at the sunlight, the view and the rainbows from the hanging crystal.

I felt a ‘message’ come in from my Guides: “You know how you have been fasting, one day at a time, here and there after your trip to Mexico?  How would you feel about fasting for three days straight?”   (My spiritual practices have included participating in Vipassana (a Buddhist meditation technique), I knew to really check-in with my feelings, before answering – to get a true answer from all my bodies.  I allowed my feelings the time to express themselves from all parts of myself before answering; to make sure I could get a full alignment, not just answer from my head.)  After a few minutes, it seemed all aspects of myself were in agreement that this could be accomplished truthfully.  So I telepathed back: “It would be ok.”  I then asked, “when?”  And I understood my Guides to say, “Next weekend – Friday, Saturday and Sunday.”  That seemed ok to me.  Neither I, nor my Guides seem to have anything more to say, so I shifted back-down to my current reality, that we know as 3-D.

As I looked around, I checked the clock and realized that it was too late to try and return to the Church Service I was previously attending; so I decided I might as well as just change my clothes and get on with my day and stay home.

I started walking down the long hallway to my bedroom and then I could hear the phone ringing.  I went to the bedroom and picked it up, “Hello?”  The call was from my Real Estate Agent, Mary, she was calling me; “Hi Mary, you won’t believe what just happened!  You know that couple that put in the offer on your house?  Well they just called.  They said that they didn’t want to take a chance in losing the house (in case the other couple showed up with an offer also); they want me to re-write the offer now.  The new offer is to be at full-price, without any contingencies!  Roughly, that’s a $30,000 difference!  Can you believe it!  I’ve been doing Real Estate for 25 years and this has never happened!  Amazing!   So, if it is alright with you, how about if I come by at 3 p.m. instead of 1 p.m., with this offer?”   I said:  “Amazing is right!  Thank you!  Sounds great!  Ok, I’ll see you then.”

As I let go of holding the phone next to my ear and started to put it back on the cradle, I again heard from the inside, my Guides come in and telepath: “You show-up for Spirit 100%, we show-up for you!”  Then I knew that Spirit was happy with me (gifting me a 100% offer on the house for a 100% commitment to my path ( i.e. fasting)), as I began my ‘next step,’ into my new way of life, a closer partnership with God.


Living in the Forest


Banff National Park, Alberta Canada, August 2009

I am Monad, a beautiful lady who lives in the forest.  The forest is wide and vast.  There is plenty of natural food in this forest.   Down in the valley, is a wonderful river with plenty of glacier-melt water that runs all year and tastes wonderful to drink!

I, Monad, am a young maiden and live by myself in the forest with the animals, trees, plants, birds and flowers.   I have my messengers from God; they are in nature, silently.  Jesus gives me messages as a deer/elk, Mother Mary comes to me as bird messengers, especially the robin; and, St. Germain comes as a wise crow.

This one day as I am walking through the forest, I became hungry.  I stopped and sat down and asked Mother Earth to help me find something that would be good for me to eat.  After resting a little while, I then went deeper into the forest and pretty soon I saw the most amazing, huge, Elk that I had ever seen.  It stopped and looked at me and didn’t even run off.  Instead, it went about its business grazing on grasses and such.  Pretty soon, I felt guided to follow the Elk as it wandered down a trail.  I noticed that the Elk was not only eating grasses, but some of the mushrooms that had sprung up overnight after the last rainstorm.  As I walked along I began to wonder what mushrooms might be good for me to eat or not.

Remembering guidance from Archangel Michael, he told me that when something feels good, I would get a great ‘love’ feeling in my heart that would feel good also; and that when something didn’t feel good (or wasn’t good for me), I would get a heaviness in the pit of my stomach and maybe feel bad or hear the words ‘no’.  But he cautioned me, to not always trust the words….to trust my feelings instead.  I also noticed that God speaks through me silently as well.  God seems to use my eyes to notice specific things.  I found myself seeing certain mushrooms along the path and then I would ask my inside self if that one was good for me or not.  The first few I felt I heard the words no or the feeling of hunger went away from the inside.  I was also noticing quite a trail of partially-eaten mushrooms left by the Elk.  Thank you Jesus!  I felt he was leaving me a trail of mushroom crumbs to let me know I was on the right path!  Pretty soon, I felt my eyes focus on this pretty pink/red mushroom.  It looked great.  I felt happy!  I asked the mushroom if it would be ok if I picked it and I still felt happy, so I did.  My heart was very joyous and I then decided to sit down, right then and there and eat the mushroom.  I gave great gratitude to God and Mother Earth for this gift!  Wow! What a meal…not just a few leaves or nuts, but a big mushroom!   I noticed as I sat and gave a great big, heart-open, gratitude to God, I looked up to the sky and the clouds parted and the sun shone through and this amazing love passed all around me and through me…. Ah, the love of Creator!  She/he loves us all so much….

I found it interesting that the mushroom had a hot spicy taste to it.  It wasn’t plain at all…very tasty and filling too!   After I finished, I decided to walk some more, but now I was thirsty.  I have noticed that mostly I am not thirsty, unless I eat something.  As I went further on my walk, I again looked around for maybe some more mushrooms; but, then I remembered that it is best for me not to store-up food.  From my experience, eating in the moment is best.  It is fresh and it is what is best for me in that moment.  Many times in the past, I had stored food, but really, the next day or later, it is usually something else I really want to eat and not what I had collected.  I also realized that I took the gift of the plant’s life-energy when I picked it in that moment; so instead, I could have just left it there to continue to grow, stay fresh and live.

Living in the forest by myself has given me time to contemplate many of my likes and dislikes and my tendencies to base my actions on either love or fear.  Ultimately, that is what I figures it all comes down to: love or fear.  Sometimes love has other names like: gratitude, appreciation, beauty, kindness, joy, life, etc. and fear has other names like: anger, greed, mean, dead, hurt, pain, etc.  I have decided that love feels better than fear.  I love it when my heart opens and feels so big and happy.  Yes!  So I try to always choose love as much as possible and notice when I am perhaps making my choices based on fear instead.  Mostly, I realize that storing a lot of food, was really based on fear and not love.  It really gets down to the moment also.  I have realized that acting outside of what is needed for the moment is living in the past (habits/pattern) or future (fear of lack)…and not in my power of creativity in the moment.   I noticed that when I am in the flow of the moment, I am very creative and well taken care of.

I really like being alone a lot, because I realize, I am not really alone!  On the inside I have my ‘knowing’ of a connection to another world of invisible friends that are visible to me there.  My invisible friends do help me here.  Sometimes, they are really pretty visible here…really!  Sometimes, I look at the bark of a tree and see people-like beings.  One time, I saw a leprechaun and even talked to him for a while!  Mother Earth or Mother Mary, I’m not sure which, talks to me all the time through the honey bees.  She gives me ideas when they come near me as I sit quietly.  So who is to say what is visible or invisible anyway?

I have also noticed something else that I would like to share: that when you sleep directly on Mother Earth, you get the most wonderful insights, dreams and healings.  Yes, it is true, it happens to me all the time.  I find that I have inside information about the area where I am, the people and animals that come near me, I also remember my dreams and where I journey during the night and the best of all, Mother Earth and the angels heal my body so I am always healthy!  Nature is awesome!  I notice also that I have to do my part and be silent, listen and be observant.  Nature (birds, animals, plants and trees) are always silently showing me their way of being and all I have to do is sit, be quiet and observe.  If any questions well up inside of me, pretty soon something or someone shows up to give me an answer.

Day 2:   I woke up this morning in a new forest.  I visited the horses and mules nearby.  I noticed a lot of ground squirrels in this area.  I very much felt my connection to my star brothers and sisters.  I felt today like spending time saying my “I Am Presence” prayer.  Last night as I was walking through the forest, I again noticed a lot of mushrooms, many different varieties that I was not familiar with.  I talked to God/Goddess (Mother Earth) and asked Spirit to somehow show me which ones might be good to eat.  Later I met a cowboy and he was very wary of eating any mushroom, though he said he knew someone once who knew how to find his meal in the forest anytime.  I thought about what he said….eating in the moment and having a full-meal everyday just in the forest!

I began my prayers, this morning, calling in the Saints, sages and honoring the 7 directions.  I called to bless all life.  I love doing my prayers and I feel a special energy for myself in honoring the Earth, especially when I feel it is right  to say them.  It takes a while, about 2 hours to really ‘feel’ into them.  At some point I also held my ‘mother crystal’ in my lap, to anchor the love and light of source (which is everywhere) here in this sacred place.   Today was a very special day.  It is the 3rd day anniversary of the Harmonic Concordance and also the anniversary of my former marriage 36 years ago….August 18th.

As I pondered, again, which mushrooms might be good to eat, and after talking to the man, I decided to collect a few and set them aside with the intention of researching them at the library.  A very mental way to approach the situation.  However, this morning when I was setting up to say my prayers, I noticed the ground squirrels running around and eating this or that.  I asked Spirit to only show me (notice) those mushrooms that are good for me.  I noticed that the squirrels did eat most of one variety of mushroom…so those must be good.  Shortly, thereafter, I had a thought…that would be good, if the squirrels just nibbled on a mushroom, but didn’t eat it all of it (like the elk did); then, I would know it would be good to eat and there would be some for me.

Towards the end of my prayer session; I felt very much compelled to call in my grandmothers and grandfathers.  The area where I am is called Winnewanka, after the former Native Americans (or First Nation) people that lived here called Winni-wiki.  I felt like no one had been here in a long time to drum to Mother Earth or to honor our Native American ancestors and Mother Earth through drumming.  The order of my prayers include this request:  “Beloved Maitreya, how can I exercise faith today, beyond what I know and experience a miracle in each moment?”   I say this three times.  I also know Maitreya as the higher/incorporated selves of Jesus, Mary, Sananda, Buddha, ascended Native American and galactic oversoul.   Then I drummed.  I really feel into my drumming; calling on all the Love and Light Spirits that are present and wanting to express their love into this earthly plane.  I love the sound of drumming, it fills up my heart and I love feeling the presence of Spirit within and all around me.  I was sitting on my blanket from Mexico, barefoot, eyes closed in the forest really enjoying myself with the sun shinning and the wind gently blowing…. Ah, the love!

When I was done, I realized I was hungry.  As I walked forward I noticed mushrooms around me…yet, the thought of mushrooms was really farthest from my mind.  I noticed this time certain ones and I felt they were a very special gift from Spirit… a thank you.  I collected those and walked further.  I then saw the same type of mushrooms that the squirrels were eating, but this time they just took a nibble from the top and left plenty for me!!!!   Awesome!  Thank you God!  Thank you Lord Maitreya for miracle!  And most perfectly, thank you ancestors and Mother Earth for showing me.   By the time I got to where I wanted to wash and eat the mushrooms, I realized I had a lot of mushrooms!  Too many, really.  So, then I proceeded to check out each one….but not through the mind, through the heart.  I held each one to my heart and asked if this one was good to eat?   I could feel a huge amount of love-energy move through my heart and could hear ‘yes’.   After a while, I then asked Spirit, are all mushrooms good to eat?  I felt that the answer I got was that it is a matter of vibration.  What ever vibration I am radiating at, I attract into my reality….with help from Spirit for discernment, at this moment, I was ‘blessing’ the mushrooms and they were blessing me.  I believed them to be divine and therefore they were, especially holding them up to my heart in deep appreciation and gratitude!  Mushrooms are special, because they are sensitive beings/spirits and are easily infused with the love/fear energy of others, especially humans.

After washing the mushrooms, I decided to taste test the different ones….  Oh, now I get it!  With so many, I don’t need to eat them all.  They all have different tastes and textures.  As I sampled them, I realized that the ones I liked best were the ones that the squirrels took a nibble out of…of course!  They are experienced taste-testers!  I noticed, as I started to eat these and get my fill, I moved on to other mushrooms, Spirit was guiding me further…sometimes I would go to sample a new and different one, but then my stomach felt full.  To me that is ‘no’ or wait, so I sat it down.   Some were easy to discern right away (to tough, bitter aftertaste, etc.) so I decided to bless them and return them back to the land.  I am so happy!  I keep laughing now when I saw all these mushrooms with little squirrel nibbles on them!  I love God.  Always getting through to me, one way or another, so I can again trust nature and how Mother Earth feeds us naturally.

I love miracles…it is a miracle to me.  I didn’t have to use my mind, go to the library, spend a lot of time looking up what other people have figured out…Spirit was able to show me right here and now what was good for me and I immediately had breakfast…through love, my heart, intuitive feelings and the animals.  Thank you God/Goddess, you are awesome!





Little Foot


I was in California and had met a beautiful older man, Peter, while I was serving at campground hostess at Panther Meadow on Mount Shasta.  Peter was from Montana and he said he was guided to come to the mountain.  He was a miner, a prospector and also had just sold his large, successful art and collectibles gallery back East.  Sometime later, Peter met Kamala who lived in Mt. Shasta and taught classes on The Ascended Masters.  Later, I then met Kamala and even house-sat for her as well.

One day, Kamala was putting on her first workshop in Sedona and Peter was going to help her.  They both then, asked me if I would like to help also, as I was headed towards Sedona in my travels.  I said ‘yes’, but since it was still a couple of weeks out, I’d have to see what was happening in my life, before I could be sure.

I decided to travel to Southern California (this is in 2009) and spend some time at Joshua Tree National Park.  I liked going there to get closer to Spirit, do a body-cleanse by fasting and at that time I also was saying the ‘Ascension Hail Mary prayers’ and reading a ‘Mother Mary’ book.[1]  I finished up in the California desert and started to head further southeast, towards Sedona to help my friends, Kamala and Peter with this week-long workshop.  As I was driving there, I was passing a lot more desert area.  I don’t know exactly why, but whenever I go through the desert, I feel Jesus acutely and I seem to always want to go on a fast.  As I asked Spirit about this, one time, a person did a reading for me and she told me that the reason for this, was I was with Jesus in the desert as an elemental, water, when he did his 40 days fast.

Another time, my Spirit gifted me with a vision:  I saw myself (my consciousness) about 20 feet off the ground.  I was looking down at a man standing in front of a large sea.  He was dressed in many layers of robes of long ago.  He had a staff in his right hand.  He was commanding the waters to part.  I looked up ahead of me and I saw the ‘Eye of God’, and I received approval from God to do as he [Moses] commanded, so I used my ‘beingness’ and parted the waters of the Red Sea.  I was in a multi-dimensional state of being, so I was the invisible wall that separated the waters and created a path of dry earth for the people to walk, I also was a higher Presence that was above the event witnessing it.  As the people got to the other side, I then ‘felt’ Moses want to close the waters again, so I did.  Everything was totally non-emotional, just serving God/Moses as directed.

Back to this story traveling to Sedona, I am now entering Sedona through the south-end of town and a thought comes in for me to ask:  “Jesus, you know me, I’ve been fasting on and off for many years now, but never have I fasted for 40 days straight.  Is there really anything to fasting 40 days straight?”  I then felt a strong energy come into me and I found myself making a left turn towards Boynton Canyon.  I was already loaded up with water, tea, some apple and lemon juice.  “Ok,” I thought, as it was becoming very apparent that Spirit was guiding me to a place to do a long fast.  Guess, there is nothing like ‘experiencing’ life to get one’s answers to a question.  I cancelled all my obligations to the outside world, which was very easy (I’ve learned over time, not to make too many commitments outside of ‘now’) and found myself in a good place to stay put and do my ‘shamanic thing’[2]

The first day I just settled in, made appropriate phone calls, obtained as much water as I could have with me (about 10 gallons) and did prayer.  The second day, I started to wander around a little bit.  I could tell there were cows in the area.  It seemed that I could also, feel deer around, but they weren’t anywhere I could see them.  I also would hear occasional gunshots in the area, but they were mostly in the morning and not very close to where I was staying.

On the third day, I felt to wander to a particular place further out.  As I was out near an area that must have had water, but now it was underground, I sat on a rock.  Shortly thereafter, I felt a ‘presence’, a being of some sort.  As I sat there, I felt more into the ‘energy field’ of the being and it felt fine.  It seemed curious to me and also a little timid.  I felt it was observing me from a distance.

This experience got my curiosity up.  I decided to try and visit the being again.  It was the fourth day of my fast, so I was getting lighter too and more sensitive.  I returned to the rock where I sat the day before and tried to open a dialog. Instead of hearing much, I received a vision of a small, brown person.  I just felt to sit, wait and be benevolent.  After a while I went back to my van camp (I was just van camping, no tent this time).  I again just spent my day doing ‘The Big Seven’ and sometimes some art.  At some point during the night, in the early morning, as I was sleeping in my van with the side door open I was suddenly awakened to see a whole herd of cows in my immediate area and right next to me. I could practically reach out and touch them if I wanted; I realized I was very happy I was in my van and high off the ground and not in a tent.  Later, as it got towards dawn, I again heard gunshots in the morning, not too close to me, but I found it very disturbing.  I didn’t know the rules, laws of this area, but I was really hoping they weren’t shooting any animals, especially as I was trying to be friendly to them.

That day, I wandered around the area again; I think because of the energy I was running, by fasting, a deer did let me see it.  I tried to telepath to it a message of love and peace.  I confirmed that it needed to do what was necessary to be safe also, since I sensed it was hiding out for some reason.  Later that day, I again went to the rock to see if my etheric ‘little brown friend’ was there.  As I sat there, I could feel it come much closer to me.  Maybe because of my process, as I was becoming more surrendered and benevolent to Spirit, the being that day came right near me.  I sat for a long time in peace and silence enjoying our energetic sharing.  At some point, I felt it was time to go.  As I was leaving, I started noticing ‘barefoot prints’ in the soft sand.  In a little while, I stopped and took a closer look.  They were the barefoot prints of a human that was the size of a child.  The width of the foot seemed equal to the length of the foot!  “How unusual,” I thought.  I sensed, though it was a human footprint, but maybe it wasn’t a modern day, common one.  Shortly, thereafter, I also realized that no common person would be walking around barefoot in this area, it is full of sharp rocks and cactus!  I also realized that the footsteps only seemed to stay in the immediate area of where the sitting rock was and not much further out.

“Wow,” I thought, “This being, this little brown person, has gifted me with these footprints.  Humm…  I think I’ll call him/her ‘Little Foot!’”  In honor of the ‘Big Foot’ beings of California and Oregon, but much smaller.  Other than the barefoot prints I saw the next few days as I wandered around the area, that was most of my contact with Little Foot, in that way, until my last day of the fast.  I didn’t feel to photograph the footprints.  I felt it was a personal gift to me and it was best to keep this to myself at that time.

Also, within the next few days, the early morning gunshots would sometime come closer.    About then, I was running out of water and had to go into town.  While I was in town, with cell phone reception I called around and found out that yes, indeed, hunting season had just opened and was allowed in the area where I was.  I then made note of the dates.  In my sensitive state, I really didn’t like the shooting happening around me.  I felt that by fasting, the animals were feeling the energy and wanted to come to me, in friendship; same with me, friendship, not to be killed.

Then one morning, I knew that the hunter had killed the last and only deer left in the area; the one that had let me notice it.  I did a prayer for the soul of the deer and the man who killed it.  Later, I felt to wander around a bit and almost immediately, I came across a couple of men.  One was highly excited.  He approached me and asked, “Have you seen any deer around here?”  In a very impersonal, non-emotional way I answered, “There was one a few days ago, but now he was killed this morning.”  The man, in a very excited stated said, “Yes, I know!  I killed it!”  As he was grinning from ear to ear, so happy with himself.  He then said, “I’ve brought my friend out here now, to see if we can find more deer and hunt them too.”  I said, “You might as well as go home, they are all gone now.”  He then decided to ignore me and the two of them walked away, the one man talking excitedly to get their energy back up for killing.  For me, I also just kept walking the other way and knew that ‘what goes around, comes around’; or ‘do unto others (including animals) as you would have them do unto you’.  God bless.

I continued on my fast and found myself travelling out-of-body pretty easily.  I was visited by Spirits and received a lot of knowing/awareness as I would propose questions to the universe asking, ‘What were the Universal Laws’.  I found that my 10 gallons of water would last me about a week.  That was the hard part, having to drive out of the wilderness, all the way into town to get water.  The challenging part was energetics.  I was very sensitive to everyone; hearing their thoughts and feeling their feelings.  I had to stay focused to just get my water and return to the wilderness, as not to get sidetracked with the ‘mass-consciousness’ field of the city.

As it turned out, on the 19th day of my fast, Mother Mary came to me and we looked at my life/lives together.  As we ‘remote viewed’ my timelines and lifetimes, it became clear to me that I still had some heavy energy left where I grew up, Ojai California.  It seemed to me, that she was indicating that it would be good for me to return there next, to ‘gather’ my previous, lower-vibrational energy there and transmute it.[3]   On Day 20, a curious thing happened.  I went for an early morning walk to an area I had not been before.  I just meandered here and there.  Then I saw a young man not too far away also coming where I was walking.  I didn’t feel we were to meet or talk, just be in proximity of each other, which we were for about 20 mins.  I felt into him and sensed he was with the military.  He was only about 30 yrs old, but it seemed he had a very responsible job, a technical job.  It also seemed that he was greatly troubled.

After we energetically connected and I left the area to return to my ‘retreat spot’; I was sensing that something powerful happened.  I felt a transference of energy occur.  It was very subtle, so it had to be Spirit directed, but an overwhelming sense of anger, frustration and loss came over me.  No longer did I seem to know the Masters, Saints or Angels.  In fact, as I tried to resume praying, I didn’t seem to know what that was all about.  Regardless, I just sat with myself until the end of the day and didn’t do much except later, after quite a while, could I continue doing what I usually did, ‘The Big Seven’.[4]

The next morning, the 21st Day of fasting, I got it very strongly from Spirit to leave, I was done.  I felt happy about it.  As I was leaving, I felt to stop at the Honanki Ruins, which was near where I was camping.  It was before 8 a.m., so I had the place pretty much to myself.  As I was approaching the ruins, I realized that ‘Little Foot’ was with me.  He telepathed to me as I walked around the site, he said, “I wanted to show you where I live (yes, live, not of the past).”  I then stood looking at the cliff dwellings in the cliff-face wall and Little Foot indicated he was from there.  I thought that this was wonderful to know and I indicated that I felt very honored that Little Foot wanted to shared this information with me.  “Wow,” How amazing!  Since I was there for a little bit, the docents that worked there showed up later and I asked them how old the ruins were and she told me about 1100-1300 AD[5].  I then realized again, truly there is no time and space when one gets out of this dimension; it’s all ‘now’.  Thus, Little Foot’s past is his/her ‘present’ and my present as well, in the right circumstances, vibration and dimension.

As I left to go, I felt a great amount of joy and love in my heart from Spirit (for a job ‘well-done’).  Then I headed to Ojai, to finish my fasting, prayer and ‘The Big Seven’.


[1] The Blessed Mother’s Blue Rose of the Healing Heart, by Clarice Mary McChrist.

[2] Also known as The Big Seven: “Prayer, Fasting, Meditating, Silence, Movement, Being in Nature and Focusing on God Within.”

[3] This became my knowing and mission, as I travel the world, God is sending me to places of ‘former lives’ to magnetize my energy back to myself and transmute it to a higher vibration.  Knowing that only ‘I’ can do this for myself and my Soul-group, Monad.  This I know to be my process and my gift of service back to the planet.

[4] Over time, this happened before, my knowing of this is that the man became me and I became him, maybe we were in the same Soul group?  Either way it’s a blessing, for me as he and he as me, we merged and my knowing became his knowing until it was integrated and for me ‘transmuted’ into higher knowing of Spirit.

[5] The Sinagua people of the Ancient Pueblo Peoples, and ancestors of the Hopi people, lived here from about 1100 to 1300 CE. (

Faith as Fuel in the Car

Faith as Fuel in the Car

My friend William is a very special person.  I knew him as Wil.   He was open to all possibilities and maybe that is why he lived and experienced a different life than most people.  One day while we were visiting, he told me of an experience in his life that I enjoyed hearing very much, so I thought I’d share it with you.  To me, his story is what magic and dreams are made of….


I was planning a road-trip across the country [USA]; so, in preparation, I needed to get a few things done on my car.  I took it into an auto-repair shop where I had gotten to know the mechanics pretty well.  In fact, Tom, my friend now, was the person who mostly worked on my car.  Tom and I liked to chit-chat about paranormal experiences and metaphysical philosophies and over the years we became good friends.  In this last visit, as Tom was finishing up with a few minor repairs on my car, he stepped over to me and said:  “You know, I can fix it so that your car will never need gas.”  I said, “Cool, you can?  Awesome!  Go ahead, I’d love it!”   Then Tom stepped away and turned towards the car.  In the meantime, another friend came by and I got engaged in conversation with him.  The most I noticed about Tom ‘working magic’, was that he just walked around the car, talking to it and had his palms out towards it, like doing a blessing.

When he was done, he came over and we finished up the conversation where we both agreed: “Its all about energy and vibration in this world to manifest what one wants.”  He mentioned that: Now, I just need to keep ‘Faith’ in what he said, believe in the possibilities of magic [high vibration] and not to doubt [low vibration].  I then paid the bill and said my good-byes.

A while later, I am leaving on my trip and notice I have about a quarter tank of gas and normally I’d stop and fill-up before departing.  This time, though, I decided to ‘Keep the Faith’ and see what would happen.   I turned on some really good music and was driving in a great state of Joy, just appreciating the beauty of this world, Earth and looking forward to my next adventure.  The miles and hours passed by like minutes….God, how I love great music!!!

Driving down the highway, a while longer, the warning light came on about needing gas.  I was maintaining my great mood and I said to myself, “Hey, it’s cool.  No worry.”  And, I let it go.” [that was Will’s usual phrase….’let it go’.]   Pretty soon, the car started to sputter and kind-of have small, jerking actions as it was running out of gas.   I started to move into the slow lane and then look for a place to pull over to the side of the road…. but then, the Magic happened!  The car was still moving in the momentum of the regular gas which now was gone, when a completely different energy came into the car.  It was like the car was suddenly powered by jet fuel!  The car had a completely different sound!  A higher pitch.  Smooth.  High vibe.  I was ecstatic!!!  How cool is this?  Awesome!  My car is running on Light energy and my car sounded like a jet engine!  No more buying gas for me!  I love my friends!!!

[I then asked Will, “Does your car still run on Light energy now?”  He said no.  It stopped a while ago.]  He said it happened like this:

My journey, over the years, took me to many places and I met many people.  I could see etheric energy most of the time and enjoyed all that I did experience.  All was well and everything was going really great.  Then one time I was in California and ‘I got it,’ I was to pick up this young lady, Julie, and we were to travel through Nevada and go to Arizona.  Everything was going well.  A couple of days into the trip, we were driving through the desert near Las Vegas, it had to be well over a hundred degrees, and we had this conversation:

Julie says:  “Hey Will, I noticed your gas gage says it’s on empty, maybe we better get some gas.”  Will says: “No, it’s ok.  The gage is broken and there is plenty of gas.” (In the meantime, Will tells me that he already knew that Julie was young and just discovering her path and had not gotten to the point of believing in the magic of Light energy in physical action on this earthly plane, so he didn’t feel he could explain to her this paranormal phenomena right then and there).  Julie says:  “Ok.”   Then a little while passes and  Julie thinks about it and says:  “I understand what you said, but how then do you know then, when to get gas?  I wouldn’t be such pest about this, but we are in the middle of the desert, in the summer heat which has to be 110° or more, and it would be a real bummer to run out of gas and air conditioning.”  Will replies: “I just fill it up and then calculate how far I can drive and it is always ok.”  (he tells me he is happy, still feeling self-assured and smiling while he answers her….still holding a really good vibe.)  Some times passes, then Julie says:  “Ok, this is my last time to bother you about this…if I didn’t feel it was so important, I’d let it go too, but I’ve been traveling with you now for days, and we haven’t stopped to get gas!”   Will is now feeling stuck.  No quick answer.  She is just not ‘there’ in knowing and experience and explaining magic isn’t going to work.  Will knows it is a low vibe to feel you are not telling the truth.  He waits a while and just says:  “Hey, can you just let it go, ok?”   Julie says: “Sure.”  And true to her word, she spoke no more about it.

The rub is that Will couldn’t let it go.  He turned up the tunes.  His favorite songs.  He even started humming, drumming his fingers on his knee, trying to hold his happy vibe.  He was doing well.  As the time passed the silence between him and Julie grew.  He could feel the heaviness of the energy between them draining away his Joy.  The music was good, the scenery good, the future good….but the moment…the now…it was changing.

As he let his mind relax in between the music, his sub-conscious mind started to work on his thoughts… “What if?”  Slowly, but surely, doubt started to creep in.  His vibe was getting lower, he was losing his smile and self-assured attitude…his Joy was slipping away.   He consciously acknowledged that he was sitting next to Julie, and thereby sharing her auric field in a small space.  The Law of Opposite Expression was plain to feel and the resistance was building between them.  Finally, in a wandering-mind, sort of way, doubt got a foothold and he had the thought:  “What if we did run out of gas?”  In that very instant, the car lost energy, started to slow down and the sound went from a nice high-pitch tone to being quiet, very quiet…. Yes!  As if answer to his thoughts, the universe complied, they are indeed out of gas.

[I asked Will if he ever he went back to Tom to get his car ‘fixed’ again and he said no.  He had lost the location and when he thought he found the shop again, Tom wasn’t there.]  Wil can be very philosophical also.  He said, “Anyway, that wasn’t the point.  It was a lesson.”  He got years of free gas and living in the magic of ‘Being’ in Light and it is an awesome ‘high-vibe’ experience…one we are all here to master…no matter how it manifests.  The magic is within us.  He was a co-creator with Tom and they had a goal of creating ‘magic’ and they did.  When with Julie, they co-created doubt.  But the point is to master ‘Self’ and maintain the magic within….even in the face of contrast…all around us also.   Self-mastery is the key.  In conclusion all he said was: “Peace”. [One of his favorite sayings].

And peace be with you….Wil…as you shared your gift of stories with me, I now share with others, though you have passed on to other worlds….God bless you and the love we shared.

A Dark Shadow Being


I was living in Santa Barbara, CA with my husband and two children.  My son was about 4 yrs old and my daughter was about 6 mos.  I was working full-time and quite frankly I was exhausted.  On top of all that, we had bought a new, used, fixer-upper house that kept us all very busy.  The baby was not sleeping during the night and it seemed when she would wake up, my son would wake up too.  I was not getting any consistent, long-term sleep and basically I developed insomnia.  Being who I am, if I don’t get enough sleep, I seem to go inter-dimensional and out-of-body very easily.  I also see into the inner planes and astral fields very easily, sometimes even when I do get sleep, so it was not a good thing at all having sleep deprivation; in that, the inner-plane world becomes very real and visible to me a lot.

Now I know that God, my Guides, the Masters and the Angels are over-lighting everything in my experience here; so I know (now) to trust that; but then, I didn’t know how to deal with it.  In my world, I couldn’t and didn’t talk about these inner-realms experiences to anyone and feel I’d be received, so I didn’t.

One Saturday afternoon, when I was home and exhausted, I laid down on the couch while the baby was quietly sleeping in her room and my son was in the living room with me, watching TV, I drifted off to sleep (which I usually never do during the day).  I then went ‘out-of-body’, it was fun in an interesting way.  I could clearly see, hear and know all about all the people.  I clearly saw my son transfixed watching TV; I knew the peace my daughter was having as she took her nap; I had clear knowing of the work their father was doing outside in the yard also.  After exploring the room I was in, my consciousness seemed to be hovering around the ceiling, I reached out and expanded into the other rooms of the house, but nothing of importance was happening.  It seemed that the main point to my experience was to notice how acute my sense of hearing, sight and knowing was, being out of the body.  I understood that the Earth ‘body’ is quite dense and some of our sensory perceptions are naturally block.

I then started sensing my ‘Guides’ and it seemed, I might as well as go back into my body.  Well I couldn’t!  I tried and tried and I couldn’t get in!  I was not happy.  My mind came up with all kinds of ideas of how, ‘if I could just wiggle my little finger’, I might get in the body and then wake up.  But, it wasn’t’ happening.  So, I just kind of accepted it and then hovered around some more in the room.  I felt like my Guides were trying to have me notice something, as long as I was out of the body.  What I noticed was how happy I was without the heavy, Earth-body, in terms of senses and abilities.  Everything was so much clearer!  And though I was even more sensitive to sight, sound and knowing, I was also ‘detached’ (just non-emotional witnessing) to what I was experiencing.  Another thought came to me too, “This must be what it is like when someone is in a comma.” I thought, “Yes. It’s good to keep this in mind, in case further circumstances put me in contact with someone in a comma; I’d know that their consciousness would really know, to a fine degree, the thoughts and feelings of anyone around the body via sight, sound and knowing.”  I assumed the lesson was learned, because shortly after this realization, I returned to my body and I easily got inside this time.[1]

Some time passed and I again continued with even more sleep deprivation.  It was not good.  It seemed as soon as I could finally relax and maybe fall asleep, the baby or some disturbance would wake me up again, and again, and again.  “What’s the use?”  I thought.  I didn’t know what was more difficult:  Trying to sleep and getting woken up over and over or just surrendering to not any sleep at all.

But, nature being what it is, one afternoon, I did fall asleep in the middle of the day again.  All was ok, but as I was waking up, instead of the reality of ‘light’ or the 3-D physical reality we are used to living in, I was between worlds again, but this time I was in the astral field.  Ugh!  As I opened my eyes, I saw a very large dark being standing in the doorway, just opposite of me lying in bed, at my feet.  The dark being was so huge, he filled the door frame.  He was dark, smoky-like with red eyes and he was looking right at me.  As I came out of my sleep; at first, I was detached emotionally, just witnessing it; however, as I more fully came into the body and ‘woke-up’, I felt a lot of fear looking at the devil-like being.  At that moment, the big, dark being came right at me, right to my throat.  I felt my heart shudder and in a flash, I seem to pass out and go unconscious.  Yet in a few minutes, I woke up, but with a resolution to never take a nap again!

There was no one I could talk too I figured without sounding like a crazy person; I guess that has been my knowing my whole life.  Just keep my inner world to myself regardless of what I experience; but, this time I really needed help.  I just kept asking God to help me somehow.

I had just started a new job at work and an idea came to me about my boss.  She said she did Astrology.  I was happy to hear that, because that meant that she was open to more than just the simple 3-D, mental-mind, physical, business world like most people I knew.

Shortly, an opportunity availed itself to me one day, as I went to lunch with my boss.  Afterward, I found myself mentioning my experience.  This wasn’t easy for me, because if she didn’t understand how I felt, I thought I could lose my job.  Well, God is good and not only did she listen to me (with detachment, really), she gave me the best advise ever, she said, “Don’t worry about it.  Don’t you know?  You have the power!  You are in the body, not it!  And it knows it, so it is trying to scare you into believing it has the power to take you out.  But it doesn’t.  So just tell it to go away!”

As she said this, I didn’t say much, but I took it in.  I thought, “She can’t be serious.  She doesn’t know how terrifying all this has been.  It can’t be that easy.”  But, as time went by, her words took hold and I seem to gain a change in perspective.  Slowly, but surely my attitude towards this devil-dark being happened, I changed from a place of fear, to one of self-empowerment!  Though at first being a bit angry helped me: “Come on…go ahead and show yourself again!  Just bring it on!” I said to the being energetically.  But guess what?  It never came again.  Later, I realized I was no longer a vibrational/ energetic match to the being.  He projected anger, fear and dark energies, while I now felt empowered and fearless.  As time went on and I understood more of the Universal Laws, I calmed down and could relax.

Later, I learned another ‘tool’, it came from Mother Mary.  She told me, because of whom I am, it’s easy for me to travel the inner-realms.  So, not to get caught in some astral realm as I go out-of-body every night (sometimes day) like all the rest of the people by sleeping or taking naps; I needed to always say a ‘prayer’ before I went to sleep.  Also, she taught me, was to learn a prayer, such as the ‘Ascension Hail Mary’s’[2] so well, that as I transition from the physical realm to the etheric realms, even in my sleep, all I have to say is: ‘Hail Mary’ and she is instantly there along with all her Light and will guide me safely back into my body without any astral disturbance or interference. And so it has been for me for many long years.  I can say ‘Hail Mary’, even in my sleep and be safe and at peace.  Thank you Mother Mary!

[1] Later in my life, I did get to use this out-of-body knowledge with a family member and it was very helpful.

[2] “Dear God–Mother-Mary, Full of Grace; The Lord is Thee and me!  Blessed are we, as is all of Creator; Blessed is the fruit of Our Union, the Christ.  I Am Holy God-Mother, in Divine Union, merged in me now; Loving, feeling God-Mother-Mary; For I have consciously integrated my Soul-Monad plan of Ascension; Grateful for self-regeneration, rejuvenation and Life!  Right now and forever more in Loving Presence I Am!”


The Miracle Prayer.

The Story of ‘The Miracle Prayer’

“It was 2005, I had just finished a 10-day, silent Vipassana session in North Fork, CA and was guided from ‘the inner’, to go to Mt. Shasta.  I arrived in my van, in winter.   I didn’t seem to notice the cold at all and just marveled at the beautiful, glistening snow in the sunlight.

I had been visiting a shop on main street called “Angel Wings” and had admired the beautiful, playful, colorful drawings a Japanese woman had on display in the shop… I could really feel the energy emanating from the drawings!  The drawings were of Mt. Fuji, Mt. Shasta and Quan Yin.  I was hoping to meet the artist one day….

One morning, I woke up early and I had been fasting.  It was a magical day.  I knew from inner guidance to walk into town, I was feeling curious, with no particular place to go…. I was then blessed with noticing these special footsteps in the snow, that must have belong to a person 7 to 8 feet tall!  And I thought, a Lemurian!  Magic was in the air and my imagination was flowing…

I was then guided to go to a bookstore, I browsed some books on the life of Christ and then wanted to go to the Angel Wings store.  When I got there, there was a new person behind the counter.  We started talking and I found out that she was the artist of the drawings that I admired so much!  She said she had just had a most amazing experience last night.  She said that she had heard much about a group that gathered in Mt. Shasta and a woman channeled “Sananda”, the ascended Jesus.  She said she went for the first time last night (she was always working before and couldn’t go); and she was very impressed with how ‘clear’ the channel was and the whole group was blessed with high-energies and information.   Then, she said the most wonderful thing happened… at the end of the channel…the woman said: “Wait…I have a special message tonight for someone because it is their birthday, and I am to give her and all of you this prayer of Faith.”  This is what she said:

“How can I exercise Faith today, beyond what I know and experience a miracle in each moment?”        — Sananda

When the artist shared that prayer at the shop, I felt a strong urge to write it down.  I thanked her and then, left the store.   Walking on the sidewalk, I felt to say the prayer three times.  Oh, my God!   Then miracles really started happening!  I understood, from Spirit, to now go to a special place I had wanted to go for a long time, the Mt. Shasta Abby; but, the timing never seemed right…Well, right now, the timing was right!   As I walked to my van, I was very excited; then, I felt a heavy thought come to me:  “Wait, I am out of money and almost out of gas, how can I do this now?”  Then I heard this thought from my right-side, from Jesus/Sananda, saying: “Remember, exercise Faith.”   So then, I laughed and then continued walking…

I got in my van, sat for a few minutes and assessed my situation, shed a few tears of letting my fear go and started on my way.  On the way there, I was noticing everything around me was multi-dimensional and so very beautiful and interesting!  What looked like a mountain (Black Butte) in the physical; now, I also knew and saw, was the Galactic Command Center for Mt. Shasta!   And, not only that, but the Higher-selves of the one’s at the Abbey serving as the Galactic Command!  Awesome!

When I got to the Abby, I stopped, got out and wrote down the contact information to set-up a future appointment.  When I got back into my van and started it, the gas register went from empty to read almost half-full! What fun!  What magic!  And it continued, it kept happening every moment, all day!

Over the years, as I kept saying and sharing this prayer, I was wondering why it worked so great.  I feel that, the words “beyond what I know”, to me, means getting out of my head and into my heart and into my intuition-feeling part of life…where dreams, magic and miracles happen!  Also, for me, ‘beyond what I know’ is giving permission to the Divine to do what is best for me, beyond whatever I may think I know or want.

As the years have gone by, I’ve now modified the prayer to reflect my thinking and knowing.  I’ve changed the words: I Am Presence (Higher-self) and Jesus (as Sananda).

Later, as I continued to focus on the love of the Mother and the feminine nature of life all around us; the rose became a strong representation of Mother’s Love.   So, I started making my “Celestial Rose Petal Potpourri” blessings, attached the prayer, to spread “the joy!”.  Most recently, I decided I liked starting the prayer with gratitude; so, I now open with ‘Thank you!’ and added the Mother part of God.

So now, you have the story….

Miracles happen, especially if you Call (pray) upon them!  I ask people to hold the sachet to their heart (or if you don’t have the sachet, just put your hands on your heart); think of the miracles you want, feel into the gratitude of all that you have, and say the prayer three times. Sometimes, don’t even specify a particular miracle, so that Spirit surprises me!   I also know that if more people join in saying the prayer together…miracles happen even better and faster!  God, how I appreciate Grace!

The Miracle Prayer:

“Thank you ‘Beloved I Am Presence’, God/Mother/Jesus, for helping me exercise Faith today, beyond what I know and experience a Miracle of Grace, in each moment”